Social Distancing Diaries: May 6

Proof that I left the apartment today.

I made it outside on a nice day for a change; I had to pick up a few groceries this evening, and it was actually pretty warm. I even did a few chores around the house in the meantime. Not all of them, though; that would still require me to be a little more focused than I actually am these days.

One thing I’ve been finding is that towards the end of the evening, I’m just so tired I don’t have the energy to think or put any effort into interacting with other people, but at the same time I want some form of distraction or validation from them. All I can really do is try to limit my exposure to things that drain me and try to sleep the feeling off so I have some function for the next day. Gotta love it when your brain and body stands in in the way of getting what you want or need.

Part of me misses the world before everything locked down two months ago, particularly going browsing for records and the occasional meal out or get-together. I don’t miss it enough to sacrifice the lives of others. Whenever they decide that it’s safe enough for me and my colleagues to go back to our office everyday, it’s going to be another adjustment, back to the ritual of making sure I have enough time to shower, dress and eat before catching a bus that will get me downtown on time for work.

Right now, though, I’m just going to do what I need to every day, and try to make sure I give myself some space to do things I enjoy.