Social Distancing Diaries: April 1

My birthday is tomorrow; I turn 38. I remember reading something when I was a kid about something next occurring in 2020 and thinking that was a long way away, and expecting my life to be more or less what a typical child’s version of their adult self would be. I’m kind of pleased to find out that’s not exactly the case, partially because my younger imagination was a little limited in thinking about what kind of life I wanted for myself.

I’m pretty content with how 37 went. I was a little more reclusive than in previous years, but I managed to take two vacations by myself, I still enjoy my job, and I’m looking after my physical and mental health a little better than I had been. I’ve also come into a greater understanding of who I am in the past year, and I feel a certain peace about this. This is all something that’s ultimately going to be another post sometime in the future, but I feel more excited about my life to come than I had been for years.

Tomorrow’s dessert.

For obvious reasons, I’m spending tomorrow by myself in my apartment, but I’ll manage. I bought myself a dessert on today’s run to the grocery store and am ordering dinner in tomorrow evening. I may just listen to music or watch a movie that night. I don’t feel particularly alone this year, though. I may not be getting a surprise party like the one I had four years ago or having a friend from far away drop by, but I know everything in the world’s a little fucked up these days, and I’m lucky to be in a position where I can spend the day in relative calm.